ARG!!

Just have to get a couple of things off of my chest... figure that not many people read me so I can put whatever in this blog :)

This week will suck.... I am excited as I go to the eye Dr tomorrow.... so I can get contacts again... have not had any in like 2 years... so woooo hoooo.... then it is off to Bellevue to get my papers signed :( In one way I am excited in another way I am sad... another chapter ending... but maybe another opening...

Then my kids tonight are on my last nerve... they think that it is worth tempting me and making me mad.. then wonder why I am the mean one... yeah the one who drove then 15 minutes just to get an ice cream cone :( What the heck.......

All I want to do tonight is CRY!!!!

A Gripe and a tag

Well the last month has been eventful in our household... poor Seth has been sick and well that proceeded to lead to having his tonsils out yesterday... so I spent the day at the hospital with my poor baby... he did so well though.... Coming out of the anesthetic was rough.. he literally was standing on the gurney.. it was horrible... thank the lord his dad was there to help hold him down till he started to come out of it.... other than that life has been uneventful...

Well I was tagged by Jen so here are 5 little known facts...

1 - my kids are 10 1/2 months apart - my little god sends as the dr told me afterwards that I should never have been able to get pregnant

2 - I am almost done with my MBA

3 - My mom was a single mom all her life....

4 - I have just recently moved back to the city that I grew up in... my kids do not go to the same elementary school; however my best friend from high school teachs kindergarten there... it is weird... never thought my kids would be talking about Mr. Mussell... lol...

5 - I never expected to be divorced once let alone twice.. so I have decided I will never get married again... why risk failing again.. I know not a good way to look at it.. but that is how I am looking at it...

LO's Done....

Make sure to check out some layouts that I have done.. they are posted here....

http://mariesaccountability.blogspot.com/

A new start...

Well some of the girls over on Lifetime moments started to do an accountability blog about the scrapbooking supplies that they use and what htey buy... I thought that this was a good idea so I have decided that I will do this as well.... if you look under my profile you can see my blog... and keep up with me...

Lets hope I use more then I buy :)

Good Gracious...

I thought that I had posted this week... obviously not... today is such a crappy day. :( All I want to do is cry all day.... It has just been awful.... I have spent so much time thinking this weekend that it is not good for me... I wish that I did not have to think.. I think that part of it is that I am getting ready to file for the divorce and that just puts a finality to it.. and I just am not handling it well.. I think that when we said those vows it was for good and now here I am at it again... does anyone realize what a failure I feel like... i mean 2 divorces.... it sucks... what kind of person am I?? I never wanted to do this once let alone twice... I will never make it or be a good person... i just think that so many people are looking down on me.... :( It just SUCKS!!!! Someday in maybe 50 years it will be better... Somedays (like today) the only things that are good and to live for are my kids... but then they annoy me too sometimes.... wish that they did not have to see their dad... they come home all grumpy and mouthy... Got my income tax and went and spent over $200 on clothes for them and my son was disappointed and my daughter says... about time you got style like my dads girlfriend :( How low does that make me feel.....

Well enough rambling...

My accomplishments...

Weel it was a productive crop. I got 10 LO's done... they were for my moms coworkers DD BBall team... I also finished my DD's mini album of her b-day and got my design team mini album done... now yes I am too lazy to take pics... so they are not up here yet.. but I will soon....

Well this time it has been shorter...

Well it has only been like 2 weeks since I posted a blog! WOW!!

Nothing much new has happened in the last couple weeks... just working and taking classes... then trying to scrapbook when I can... not that it is enough....

I am just finishing up my Design team term at the LSS! It was fun and I will miss it.....

Tomorrow will be an all day crop... my first ever... so I am sooo excited... we will see how long I make it for