An update...

Well I am soooo excited.. I have such a positive thing going on in my life right now.... this would be that I am now dating a wonderful wonderful guy... It is so weird how fate just works in a weird way... well I was doing some digging into all the Clyde High School Alumni and just about gave up when I ran across someone I had dated in high school.. the brief 15 year old thing... lol... well I sent him a message and low and behold it was him.... so we started talking and well both of us were going through divorces.... so we started talking and well it has blossomed from there...... he is in the Air Force and it has entitled me to the fact that I will be going to Germany in October... woo hooo

Also 2 weeks ago he sent me 50 beautiful roses.

Yet another week....

Well this is one that I just want to vent for myself in... I am so hating certain men right now... they feel that they are better then though and can just get away with what ever.... well screw you.. I know better and I will not be used....

On another not ever think about fate.... well the past week has been one of those things for me.... yeah... fate.... unbelieveable... you think that certain things happen for a reason and well now it is just getting weird... and I am constantly reminded of what a dumb 15 year old I was :) but do we not all do dumb things when we were in high school????? so all I can say is that time will tell and hopefully it will be all good......... and I am owed a trip to the Eiffel tower

ARG!!

Just have to get a couple of things off of my chest... figure that not many people read me so I can put whatever in this blog :)

This week will suck.... I am excited as I go to the eye Dr tomorrow.... so I can get contacts again... have not had any in like 2 years... so woooo hoooo.... then it is off to Bellevue to get my papers signed :( In one way I am excited in another way I am sad... another chapter ending... but maybe another opening...

Then my kids tonight are on my last nerve... they think that it is worth tempting me and making me mad.. then wonder why I am the mean one... yeah the one who drove then 15 minutes just to get an ice cream cone :( What the heck.......

All I want to do tonight is CRY!!!!

A Gripe and a tag

Well the last month has been eventful in our household... poor Seth has been sick and well that proceeded to lead to having his tonsils out yesterday... so I spent the day at the hospital with my poor baby... he did so well though.... Coming out of the anesthetic was rough.. he literally was standing on the gurney.. it was horrible... thank the lord his dad was there to help hold him down till he started to come out of it.... other than that life has been uneventful...

Well I was tagged by Jen so here are 5 little known facts...

1 - my kids are 10 1/2 months apart - my little god sends as the dr told me afterwards that I should never have been able to get pregnant

2 - I am almost done with my MBA

3 - My mom was a single mom all her life....

4 - I have just recently moved back to the city that I grew up in... my kids do not go to the same elementary school; however my best friend from high school teachs kindergarten there... it is weird... never thought my kids would be talking about Mr. Mussell... lol...

5 - I never expected to be divorced once let alone twice.. so I have decided I will never get married again... why risk failing again.. I know not a good way to look at it.. but that is how I am looking at it...

LO's Done....

Make sure to check out some layouts that I have done.. they are posted here....

http://mariesaccountability.blogspot.com/

A new start...

Well some of the girls over on Lifetime moments started to do an accountability blog about the scrapbooking supplies that they use and what htey buy... I thought that this was a good idea so I have decided that I will do this as well.... if you look under my profile you can see my blog... and keep up with me...

Lets hope I use more then I buy :)

Good Gracious...

I thought that I had posted this week... obviously not... today is such a crappy day. :( All I want to do is cry all day.... It has just been awful.... I have spent so much time thinking this weekend that it is not good for me... I wish that I did not have to think.. I think that part of it is that I am getting ready to file for the divorce and that just puts a finality to it.. and I just am not handling it well.. I think that when we said those vows it was for good and now here I am at it again... does anyone realize what a failure I feel like... i mean 2 divorces.... it sucks... what kind of person am I?? I never wanted to do this once let alone twice... I will never make it or be a good person... i just think that so many people are looking down on me.... :( It just SUCKS!!!! Someday in maybe 50 years it will be better... Somedays (like today) the only things that are good and to live for are my kids... but then they annoy me too sometimes.... wish that they did not have to see their dad... they come home all grumpy and mouthy... Got my income tax and went and spent over $200 on clothes for them and my son was disappointed and my daughter says... about time you got style like my dads girlfriend :( How low does that make me feel.....

Well enough rambling...